"The enemy used this opportunity to creep fear into my mind and I began to question if what I was doing really was the right thing."
Our journey began with no preparation, zero anticipation. My husband had been working for a great company for a few years and we felt very secure. Sure, there were layoffs but we felt confident that it would not affect us.
We got a call from his office early one morning. My husband picked up the phone in the room while I waited out in the kitchen with eagerness to hear all about his new position and perhaps a big raise. After the call my husband walked out of the room with a look of surprise. A look I had never seen before. This did not look good. “So, how did it go?” I asked with not as much confidence as I once had. “Did you get a promotion? Is everything ok?” I asked. Nope, on the contrary, my husband had just been laid off! I was stunned. I couldn’t catch up to the reality of things. It’s like my mind couldn’t or maybe didn’t want to accept the reality of what this meant for us, for our plans. I stared at my husband and all I could see was fear and sadness. I just hugged him and held him tight as we let it sink in. The next few days were a bit confusing for me. I remember feeling the shock of the news and not really understanding why. I was a stay-at-home mom so it was vital that my husband have a job. Why would God allow this to happen? Did God want me to work? Did He want us to live in poverty now? So many questions that I needed to sort through. Well, this is where my journey with God really began.
My daily conversations with Him became a reality and His promises, His truths, which I knew in my head, began to surface. As I remembered and processed His promises, I literally talked to myself and asked questions, “Ok Wendy, you are here in this unknown place, what are you going to do now? What are you going to do with all these truths that you’ve known since childhood and that you’ve even used to encourage others? I ‘believed’ them just yesterday, was I going to believe them today? Was God going to change now that my circumstances changed?” I realized I was at an intersection in my life where I could trust God through this journey or I could worry and try to do things on my own strength.
I remember telling God, “Ok God, I choose you! You know I’ve never really done this. You know that I’ve never completely surrendered myself to your will during difficulties. This time Lord I am going to trust you completely. No turning back. I let go of this situation and I place it in your hands.” This was so hard for me - to completely surrender to God allowing Him to do whatever He wanted to do - to give Him full control of my life. Have you ever done that? Have you ever completely surrendered your situation to God?
From that moment on, every day, I asked God for encouragement - just enough to get me through that day. I felt like the Israelites as they traveled through the desert. God provided manna for them every day but just enough for that specific day. They were not allowed to store manna for upcoming days. God wanted them to trust Him completely. He wanted them to know that He was going to be faithful every day if they would just trust Him. So He did not want me to use yesterday’s mercies - He wanted me to trust Him with today’s mercies. He was going to give me what I needed to move forward every day. I want you to know that He was faithful in doing this. We lived like this day after day, month after month.
Despite His providence, however, I hit the wall when I reached the 5th month. I woke up one morning and I let my thoughts get the best of me. It’s amazing how fast your mind will run if you allow it to go free. My heart was so heavy this one morning but instead of turning to God I turned to my own thoughts and allowed them to take over. The enemy used this opportunity to creep fear into my mind and I began to question if what I was doing really was the right thing. Was God even listening to my prayers, my husband’s prayers, my family’s prayers? Did God really care? Was He even working out His plan in our lives? Then instantly God took over and I was quickly reminded of how He had been so faithful these past months in providing strength and encouragement. His promises of his faithfulness were imprinted in my mind. I called my cousin whom had been such a big part of this journey with us. She pointed me back to God. She reminded me of my decision to stay on the path that was going to lead me to the place God had already planned for my family. The Lord was so faithful to use the right people to help me through this journey; to point me back to whom I needed to focus on, not just for the sake of thinking about Him, but for the sake of trusting Him because He was working out all the details with providing another job for my husband.
Six months passed and we had no leads, no light at the end of the tunnel. I continued to trust God. A week later, however, my husband received a phone call and this time with a job offer attached. God had finally answered in His perfect time. This job offer was not only a promotion but it also came with a raise. My heart was filled with so much happiness, so much gratitude towards God. He had answered our prayers and now we wanted to tell everyone our story, our journey, because it truly changed us.
I have learned that in difficult seasons in life, I can…
choose to believe Him and His truths and find peace, joy, and perfect love
trust God! He wanted me to learn that He was faithful even when there was no movement in sight.
know with certainty that He always answers. If I am faithful in praying about any situation I’m in, He will answer in His timing and according to His will.